Sunday, March 1, 2009
Today I wept
For those of you who have known me any amount of time know that I cry often, usually. I have not cried much at all in the last year and a half. Pretty much since I stopped nursing Miaya. :D hahahaha. Anyway, as we began our fast this morning, I wanted something, and we were fasting about it, and as soon as I finished the prayer, I started to cry. Dustin asked me what was wrong, and I told him, I don't think I'm going to get what I want. Dustin said he didn't think so either. It made me sad, because I felt so tired, and like I couldn't do anymore. But as soon as I finished praying, I felt okay. I felt so at peace, the most peace I have had concerning this thing in about 3 months. It's a great feeling. At church during sacrament meeting, as testimonies were being borne, I kept crying and crying. I kept hearing about blessings and blessings. I think I've felt so alone and like I have been doing everything on my own lately, that I forgot I wasn't. That the only reason I had even gotten as far as I had was because of the many angels I have that are constantly watching over me. And because of the Atonement. It felt good to feel all of this today. I feel so blessed.